meet up with my jc babes today!
went to minds cafe at clarke quay
blur me thought we were playing at settlers -.-”’

anyway, minds is nice enough except for the uncomfortable sitting
the sofa is too high, and table too low
and table not big enough to play game and eat or drink at the same time
stupid expressions + ko-ku, ki-ku, jiji, oink oink and ei-ah
and the worthless gold + sharing of mines

and really happy for fr!
seeing her so happily planning for her future makes me envy
maybe deep in my heart i also want that
but i guess i’m too much of a perfectionist in that area
somehow the trait dont fit into my usual practicality

anyway, i wasted today again
and i think retribution is coming tmr… argh

there is a lot of things i want to change right now

i had enough of all the nonsense
ya, people have suggested ’solutions’
but to me, these are not the solutions because it don’t address the point of the problem

i need a listening ear
of someone who is in the situation, yet not in the situation
i can only think of one person
but sadly, no time to talk to her

sorry girls for being so exhuasted today
i’m just really sick of everything

i wish i can see boy now
run in his arms to seek comfort from all these stupid and irritating things
i dont understand why we are so busy till the point i see him only for half a day every week
talking abt living 4 streets away
our schedule simply dont match *haiz*
forget it. it is not something that can be changed

i realised…
people are getting married left right centre!!
and some same age as me
wah, and we still worrying abt low birthrate and increasing singlehood
i think people born in the 1980s seems to think differently haha

anyway, we came to a conclusion that marrying young is an option only for the rich
unless if you dont mind to slog it out after that
and i am thinking
if i can leave everything behind here
hide in some corners of australia
grow apples, oranges, grapes
look at the sheeps and cows
under the clear blue sky everyday
basking in the sun with my love one
life would be really good

i kinda longed for a life like that
but really how many of us can leave abandon all we have
and lead such a carefree life without worries
if being realistic, again, this is only for the rich

just another nice daydream of mine
which i know it’s near impossible to achieve
it can be; just let me strike toto or 4D ya? haha

on the playlist currently

一秒钟的永远 by kelly poon
i love you by chen weilian
三个愿望 by F.I.R.
一刻永远 by leo ku

i really think the new songs by the pss are nice

oh, and happy birthday (1 day late) to cass, cedric and kelvin!

changed the blogskin
think this is a much happier colour haha

anyway, a million thanks to boyfriend for taking me to campus concert yesterday
a-yue ok!
he was really good, and for the first time, life band!
everyone in the audience were high, standing up for the last songs
and i think we kinda force him to have encore
cos peifen initially was making lots of excuses, saying that the band was tired & stuff haha
and he sang 爱我别走 =)
hmm can’t really remember what else he sang
apart from 思恋是一种病

ok, then at the end got autograph session
so i challenged boyfriend to be the last person to go sign
*idea* sadly he THOUGHT he was last
but too bad, few more girls behind him
and no signing on the t-shirt too
although we saw one who brought his guitar for him to sign on, cool huh?

then it was the waiting game
part 2 actually, cos we queue in line for more than 1h to get into MLT
dunno why they start so late
and 2 of us, each with a laptop, standing there is totally not funny
and boyfriend was sweating like hell haha

part 2 of the waiting incident was !#^%#$@
apart from us coming out from campus concert, there was big4 recruitment last night
so the crowd at every bus-stop is unimaginable
3 buses came and went without stopping
plus 2 rounds of the 80cents illegal bus
and we are still stuck at SCI bus-stop
was crapping nonsense during the time
topic was ‘one thousand and one way to get out of ntu at that time’
i think it includes hijacking ‘on-call’ cabs and saying we called for it
and also asking strangers to share cab with us to jp
until we realise alice and hm was stuck at canB!
they waited 1h…….. omg
and liz told us, if we manage to get onto any bus, stand and obstruct the way at the door
so that they got space to board later hahahaha

‘heroic’ boyfriend then decided to take a cab home and saved all of us!
calling cab was a big problem too
apparently taxi uncles dont know how to navigate inside ntu
so we waited… and the taxi we called didnt appear
so we took another ‘on-call’ cab who couldnt find his caller and went to fetch alice and hm! haha

really thanks for dropping us near our houses, by making a big detour
and also for the concert!
initially i was still comtemplating not to go
cos was very tired and have to wait 5h for him to end class
but glad that i went
good unwinding! and i like i will start to listen to a-yue’s songs more often

great evening =)

initially i was in a good mood

came back from a long jog, running 50% more the distance i normally run
i like to jog round the neighbouring at 6-7pm
at this time, there is a few fellow joggers, but not too many
the rays from the setting sun is nice
and plus point is that there is a whole piece of forest which makes the air very fresh
don’t like to jog round ring road cos’ of the many many vehicles on the road which pollutes the air

was refreshed by the long run
and happy that the guilt of drinking bubble tea is gone
but i think my legs will ache tmr
the tiredness feeling is sinking in

after dinner, i dug out my IME notes to try and understand the adv assignment
happy that i’m at least doing work at last
and the best thing is that the IME notes helped
on top of that, was crapping with the bp gang for a while on msn
it seems to be a good evening
with canto pop blasting from speakers

then it was a 180degrees turn
it makes me upset with myself, for allowing one to have a large influence over my mood
when i all along believe, that happiness is by choice

sad sad sad
why like that?
convinced myself that it was understandable
and now this

where am i standing?
你听的到我的心声吗
你总是不懂我在想什么

i hate guessing

been a while since i sat down at my desk in my room
with my radio on
and me TRY-ing to get some work done
why is it so hard to concentrate? =(

suddenly it dawns on me, how much i used to love listening to the radio
it is a habit when i am studying
through my O’s, then A’s, then yr’1, then yr’2
i think the habit sorta die out in yr’3
partly due to the big pile of projects that started then

so tonight i switch on the radio again
caught 大头芬的世界 on broadcast, although i’ve been reading the story online
many many memories stirred up from the sub-conscious part of my brain
songs that accompanied me through nhss & ajc
how much i miss the days

university proves to be a little more boring
especially this semester when school simply equals to endless projects
less chances of us crapping in lectures theatres
less opportunities to lunch together in the canteens that serves not-so-good food
when i was abt to go home after lec today, suddenly surprised myself that i have spent 3 years in this ntu campus
amazing how time passes so fast
i think i probably miss the campus very very much
knowing where the lifts are, where the toilets are, where the vending machines are

another semester there and that would be end of everything
this year was hard – hard to adjust to
not having boy in school
no one to accompany me to and fro from school
or to have lunch or dinner with
or just trying to disturb him while he do his fyp in the library
no more familiar faces in fal
people like yapp, yw, yin, cass etc all graduated
no more stupid msn msgs in sch that says ‘look to your left/right’
to find them smiling silly at me

still listening to the radio
the song that i like is on – 少年游 by 优克李林

it’s only 9th of the month
i have spent more than $500!!
add another $50 for transport =(

ok, it’s all for good cause
jacky cheung concert + 1 totally-out-of-budget glasses
i don’t know what made me decide on a titus frame
luckily there is discount!!

what is relieving is that my eyesight didn’t deteriorate
for once! *phew*

no more hesitation this time round
see the advertisement and just decide – BUY!
my favourite singer jacky cheung’s encore concert in jan’08!!
i really think no one can beat his charm and attractiveness
opening 3 shows in july, and so fast coming back again in jan!!

love his songs to the max =)

gotta wake up early to fight to get the tickets

p/s: hate it when i dont know if you really want something, or jus out to accomodate me… a bit hard to distinguish? i dont want it to be the latter case… it would be so sadz

update: i bought the tix!! cat3… but the seats are just 1 aisle away from cat2… so i saved $80! keez… and they open the ticketing before 9am lah… cheat my feelings… but in any case, the system jammed after i bought so hahaahahaha